I am not religious either. Religion is people reaching up to God, Christianity is God reaching down to people. I am a Christian.
Unfortunately, there are so many hypocrites in the Christian community that it gives a lot of people the opinion we're all like that and it is too bad because the majority are truly committed to their faith.
To use an analogy, the few rotten apples should not spoil the whole basket.
I pray for you because I know you're hurting and nothing you say will convince me otherwise. The reason I believe this is because you carry so much anger with you and you don't have to. Wouldn't you like to feel peaceful and calm most of the time? I'm not saying you don't have a right to get angry but it seems to be such an overwhelming force in your life. Who hurt you so much that you turned your back on what you once knew?
There is a lot to be said for the sense of peace and hope you get from knowing that God in heaven loves you. Even if you don't love him he loves you. Your name was known to him, before you were born, he's just waiting for you to call on him to give you the comfort your soul is crying out for. Bad things in this life happen to all of us and make us question "If there was a God why would he allow this to happen" and the truth is that it is not always easy to explain and much of the time we will not get the answer in this lifetime.
Trusting in the creator, faith so deep it is unshakable is a life changing experience. There is so much cynicism in the world today that some people just cannot let themselves trust in a faithful God. I have seen so many lives changed for the better because they let the Lord take control. So, even if you say you're not religious at all, I think somewhere deep inside, your soul is crying out for that firm foundation to stand upon. God created you and he knows what you are going through and you don't have to go it alone. That is the key, all you have to do is use it to open the door to your heart and let him in.
I hope you realize it is only because I care about you that I am saying these things. If you think, I over stepped my bounds, I apologize for that but not for believing what I wrote. I've come to know you a little and would like to know you more but girl, you need to calm down. Life is way to short to let the bad things overshadow the good.
You are a generous soul, God gave you that gift. There is much good in you but you let the anger boiling below the surface distract from who God created you to be. You get things done, if you would use that for Him, I believe your life would be blessed beyond measure.
Okay, so enough preaching for one day. But know I care and will continue to pray that your heart softens toward the concept of faith and hope in the designer of the universe. I love your smiling face, there is so much good there.
Hope we're still friends because I really do care.
Love Marlene
