In Stillness

So many times I’ve called on you
when in the midst of pain
and wondered if you really cared
through times of ceaseless rain

So many times I doubted you
How much more could I bear
At times when everything looked bleak
it seemed you weren’t there.

So many times down on my knees
I knew you heard my cries
but still I let the doubts creep in
and listened to the lies

I prayed that I could just be still
I knew I had a choice
I prayed that I could just let go
and listen for your voice

Why God did it take so long
for me to clearly see
that even when you’re far away
you still are near to me

Why God did I ever doubt
my prayers were being heard
I knew how much you loved me
It says so in your word.

So Father now on bended knee
I ask you to forgive
This child of yours but once again
for I so want to live,

a life no longer doubting you
Lord take away my shame
and fill me the hope of Christ
who took away my blame.